*** Vday Blues ***

Waiting for the blacklist log to be fulfilled

Thinking u will
Call.
Text.
Express how u feel.
Reality sets in & it feels too real.
You're gone
& there's nothing I can do.
Replaying this song-
Its all I've been listening to.

Feeling the blues.

Defense mode.
Its like I'm playing 2K.
I'm playing home while you're playing-
Away.
Feeling some type of way.
You blocking calls not giving me a pass.
Blowing your phone up-
How long is this gonna last?

Maybe I shouldn't be so pushy.
But it gets to u when I'm mushy.
Romantic.
I'm frantic....

Mind u- its my day.
My birthday.
Tomorrow
But yesterday
Was Valentines Day.

smh.

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Lucky #7 hrs till my Bday !

I'm feeling *22*

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I can't say I don't understand shit
I know how it all happened.
I figured it'll get way more easier and less complicated.
Fooled myself
Screwed myself
Horrificly.

Blessed be...
Said the little tree to me.
In between stages of it's growth and what it longed to be.
Standing tall like me...
Feeling strong like me....
That's just what it longed to be.

& Like that tree, I longed to be.....
Something that wasnt me.
I wanted to breathe as easy as the tree.

My metaphorphosis is near.
I just need to practice patience.
I yearn the trees' fragrance-


As much as I pretend to be content with who I am
I know I long for more....
The tree- alive just as I am- knows exactly what it's looking for.....

A chance to grow.

If I should do something about our current situation, what would I possibly do?
Shed light on it and shun the shamelessly Luke-like ones who demonstrate dark views?
How did they come to choose to side with the ones that are likely to lose?
From the book, I've learned to go with the most high.
I refuse to be bamboozled.
The low road is for the cursed toads.
Therefore, one of the best decisions in my life was that refusal.
I went along with it for quite some time.
My eyes are open now and I can finally see.
Standing before the shore as tall as I can be.
Took some time to get to this stage in me.
But Im blessed Ive found the strength to strengthen my spirituality.
Because in all actuality,
I need to be prepared for this war.
I realized shit isnt going back to how it was before.
When the world seemed sweet to me and I loved my Earth.
When I literally lived next door to a church.
I should have listened and not have cherished this dirt.
I should have instead kept God first.
I sinked in with the minority thats really majority.
These morons dont see it that way.
To them, peace- of mind was never a priority.
Similar minds think alike.
Which group do you belong to?

I know where I belong- & it's not with you.

Killuminati, you'll never take my mind, soul & my body.

Open up ur mind.
Listen.
All the shit u think glisten
Aint gold.
So I've been told.
The truth is underneath.
It has yet to unfold.
Nevermind the buzz
Nevermind the gov'.
Its all lies
Or disguised as subs.
You know, subliminal shit.
They brainwashing u, stealing ur humanity on some criminal shit.

Lets just take a hit of this.
Pass around the spliffs.
A discussion is about to spin off.
U may not believe me
As I began to move my jaws.

See this world is a playground
To Satan & whoever follows.
Since I'm a true believer in God,
This can be a tough pill to swallow.

Im not talking about that white girl Molly.
Im talking about what the media is putting out_in ur head.

Theres no reason to be jolly. (-_-)

You're being reconstructed entirely.

& u show no sign of knowing.
Simply whats going on, and its showing.

The way u dress,
Ur high tech gadgets.

Anything thats not like u is flat out Ratchet.

Right?

U live to pretend you're in that light.
But when you're alone at night,
What become of ur dreams?

Money, jewelry, cars and clothes.
Just greed.

All the shit u done seen:
In music videos, movies and the

media* makes that life look serene.

When all it is is one big scheme.

They plotting.

& they want our heads.

Our souls without the heart

So that we're spiritually dead.

Heres what I read: theres a new world order.

In other words, they want majority of us slaughtered.

There is too many to control, they already bought down the minorities.

The rest has to get ridden of.
Thats their main priority.

Our food is being poisened.
Our music is just satanic rituals.

Illuminati is EVERYTHING BUT fictional.

Aggressive Like

Im aggressive like a bear.
A lion and a lil ass pomeranian too.
But more like my father
I belong in a zoo.
The things that I would do,
When I lose a few screws.
It'll definitely leave u wondering
About the things that I've been through.
I cant function with anger
Not concentrating.
Just losing control, its a disaster.
& its not getting better,
Im downward spiraling faster.
What happened to me?
I look in the mirror and asked that.
Its my father in me that my mother probably forseen,
It happened.
Is what looks back.
As I try to back track
Something tells me I should not.
Theres a reason I forgot.
Now my head is getting hot.
You tryna put me on the spot....
So I get aggressive like......
An unsharpened knife
To steak.
Im hard to break.
Aggressive like an ape.

Im just mad.

Its the way I've been shaped.

Its not my fault.