Fuck it.
IDC.

I thought I knew what I wanted to write about...
I actually dont. 
Lol.

Frustration is a door that opens up to many things.

I fucking hate being frustrated.

Relationships with people is the hardest thing to sustain;
For me.

WTF ?

I need to build a relationship with myself before I try with someone else.
I'm wild upset that I have to blog to push this fucking

FRUSTRATION
out my fucking door.

I hate that I dream about you. 

Now I have to have a drink and a nice slow dance with myself. Caressing my body and my cup.
Eyes closed.
;Head slightly tilted backwards.

Fuck you.
I've got me. 

I wish I could just say stop...
It's just not working for you.
That attitude and outlook is made up of artificial s.
No flavor in anything that you do.

To You....

I didn't think these feelings would come so sudden.

WTF am I thinking?

Watching this Hurricane get worse from my window.

Without blinking.

Planking

On the idea that there's a possibility of You.....

I don't wanna include I.

My frustrations are clear as to why.

It's you...

I've felt this before. 

This time I'm actually afraid.

I'm upset I'm taking back me asking for an upgrade.

Something presented so beautifully; it's hard to believe...

It's true.

First off, I wanna commend you.

On your spectacular personality despite your scarred life.

I'm not trying to offend you.

More like defend you.

Be the security guard of your ventricles' 3 chambers. 

Or more like your new pink Samurai Power Ranger.

Keeping you from mishaps & danger.

I respect you.

Therefore, I'm avoiding getting to neglect you.

By getting to know you.

Imagine* Me being all that you need. 

I could hardly imagine giving you to my brain for it to feed.

Long talks.

Long walks.

Both minds freed.

Repeatedly intellectually intertwining.

Without denying the facts.

Or even lying about the facts.

For us; the stars are aligning...

Clearly defining

We were meant for one another.

Loving you like a brother.

Thus choosing you, as my lover.

All this, we could have the chance to discover.

If we let it all out to be uncovered.

Love between 2 people could* be so beautiful.

I usually speak from experience.

But from what I know in my soul, is that love is an idea of brilliance.

I want to experience those real emotions.

With you.

Who Am I?

I'm not sure yet. My journey to find out has JUST begun.

This battle for the thought of knowing, I haven't quite won.

Everything I tried to keep under myself is slowing coming to the surface.

It's makes me question my purpose.

I guess knowing yourself is knowing the answer to that alone.

Growing and learning I haven't gotten so prone.

I have a stubborn habit of repeating the choice of bad decisions.

Wassup with that repetition?

I'm delaying my own life by not living properly.

What a fucking crockery.

Intelligent minded people hadn't these problems.

Because if they did. It would be easy for them to solve them.

Time to start thinking rational.

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I guess there is beauty in goodbye.

Why can't I let you go?

It started out with a reply,

Now feelings show.

So why couldn't you be more understandable?

Or even have the decency to let me know

Feelings weren't the same.

Just let me go.

You push me back in...

And then next we are skin to skin.

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~Peace~

Certain things get recognized when a person least expects it. People often go through life in a daze [as I do]. Until they realize stress, anxiety and other peoples bullshit interrupted their beautiful lives. I say beautiful now and never before- because I realized my life is actually pretty wonderful aside from the frustrating events that always take place. Life is definitely about learning. Today I've learned to deal with people in a more healthy productive way. When they upset you, punch a pillow or Hello Kitty in my case. Exercise while meditating positive and motivational thoughts. Shift your mood yourself instead of someone else doing it for you. Today, my peace of mind is in session.

Serenity_

Finally.

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The Subway

The subway.

The train of thought...

All who sought,

Found then bought it with them on the subway.

Head spinning with answers to questions they knew all along.

It took the subways' noise to figure out the wrongs.

Who knows what lies behind all those unfamiliar faces.

& who knows what's on these people minds while they're on their way to different places.

The subway is so strange, yet I feel a sense of  contentment.

This relationship between us is hard to explain...

To the subway I've made a honest commitment.

Think of solutions.... Till the ride is over.. and try hard to find a seat.

Have a joy ride with pretty thoughts until I'm at my stop and I hear,

"STAND CLEAR OF THE CLOSING DOORS PLEASE!"