A Good Woman Could NEVER Stay Down

This week has been a crazy one. He said to make sure my world doesnt stop... & it wont. I guess I'm seeing things more clearer now.

Going Numb

Drunk out of my mind but you know what I won’t forget?

The times you’ve spent with me and the day that we first met.

The times when you walked out on me,

Including right now.

You say you love me and wanna be with me.

You have a funny way of showing me how.

When everything's’ fucked up like this you know what I wanna do?

Stay away from you.

Deal with shit the way I want when I’m feeling blue.

I say fuck everything.

Even the vacation we just came back from.

I say fuck what you've caused- PAIN,

I’m going numb.

A Thought in my Waiting Room

As I wait while you get out of the shower, im unhappy in my own being.
Not of my choices, but who I've been seeing.
Not that its multiple,
Not that I dont love u...
But just like u been doing,
I gotta put ME above YOU.

Careless to that...

Sometimes I care about what you think,
Other times I can give 2 fucks.
Now when I'm around you
I see its hard for you,
You care too much.

What can I do though?
Its only right that I be me..
Just do what you say, huh...
Bro...
Please.

If I take you so seriously,
You would be in control.
Im aggressively controlling
So Ive been told.
Im anxious and annoying,
Acknowledged for being bold.

Theres no time to power trip,
I dont wanna be cold.
This argument is pointless.
Ready to hang it up and walk away
You're losing it.

I AM* careless to that,
Im so fucking insensitive.
Cause when every little thing causes that.....!
You use that & feel some kind of personal incinitive.

Not today.
Dont bring that negativity this way.
Real talk,
I just wanna enjoy my day.